Saturday, 23 March 2013

Disorder, chaos, moral disintegration - in short you have a ghastly mess!

No outfit post today, just not up to it at the moment.

To be honest, I don't really know why I'm posting, other than to say I'm still here, just not blogging for the time being. The dull weather coupled with 'challenging' behaviour from JB1 and a severe lack of sleep has left me at the point of near-exhaustion. I really hit rock-bottom yesterday, but I'm clawing my way out of the hole a bit more today. I really do need to sort myself out and will be seeing the GP after Easter in the hope of being referred for counselling or some sort of help to deal with it. I've suffered with depression on and off since I was in my teens, but I haven't felt this bad for this long for years. It's not fair on the kids or anyone else and stops me doing the things I like, so it's time to do something about it.

Thanks for listening x

11 comments:

thorne garnet said...

Sorry to hear you're "under the weather" sort to speak. Take all the time you need.

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

Myrna said...

Hi
Sorry to hear you are having a rough time. Just know that "this too shall pass". Hang in there.
From experience, it does get better.
Myrna

Tracy said...

I do think this weather has a lot to answer for, I hope you are feeling more yourself very soon, in the mean time don't be too hard on yourself, life is full of ups and downs and when your down the only way is up! Take care of yourself x

Helga! said...

O, sweetheart, I am so pleased you're recognising that you need help and have made an appointment. It takes hold and is so hard to see the way out.Nasty, dreary weather really doesn't help.
Take time, relax, and get yourself sorted, darl.
Much love, XXXXXXXXXXXXXX

two squirrels said...

oh sweet its so hard when you just keep falling down the rabbit hole!!!!! Making an appointment to see someone is the best thing, I went last year and it helped so much. I just needed someone away from my situation to just listen and give me time to step back and breath.
Be kind to yourself.
love V

Melanie said...

I hope you start to feel better soon, depression is never easy to deal with, particularly when the weather is mirroring those darker days *hugs*

pastcaring said...

I really do know how you feel, Liz, been there, and it's hard going, especially with two small kids. Do go and chat to your GP, and I hope there are some counselling/therapy options that you don't have to wait too long to access. Keep in touch, there are plenty of us out here who would love to offer some support, if only from a distance. xxxxx

Vix said...

Admitting to yourself that you've got a problem is half the battle, you'll get there and when Spring FINALLY arrives I bet you'll feel a lot better! xxx

Pull Your Socks Up! said...

Sending you big warm hugs dearest. So many of us have been there or are battling through. You're not alone, it's just that people stupidly don't talk about it enough. Thank you for sharing, I suffer from depression and every day can be a battle with fatigue and hopelessness. Making plans with every good intention then not being able to follow through is a big problem for me, but all part of the symptoms. Like you say, you don't want to stop doing the things you like so that's the best reason to see the doc. xoxoxoxoo

Minerva Black said...

Worried about you, do let us all know how you are when you are feeling better. Sending you lots of Spring cheer. Minerva x

CityScape Skybaby said...

Hi Liz, it's nice to meet you. I've not long come out of feeling exactly as you describe here, and I can still fall back into it very easily so I can sympathise. You're doing the right thing talking to someone about it, I didn't and I think I let myself get really ill with it all. I look forward to following your blog and getting to know you. xx